Pregnancy Test

My period is usually very accurate, but not this month. I started getting worried. Do I wanna get pregnant? I really can't answer this question. I want a baby now so that I don't have to be on the risk to have baby when I am too old. But I don't want a baby now because my husband and I have a lot on the to-do list. So, baby, please don't come yet!

I talked to a few of my close friends. They started teasing me. They don't know how my husband and I are planning to do a lot of stuffs and financially, we are really not ready! Everybody always think that you can have baby anytime once you are married. But this is not the truth. We want the best for our baby too! And before that, we have a few things to take care of before our baby arrives!

Midnight 1am, I asked my roommate to go to CVS Pharmacy to buy the pregnancy test. It felt like such a long drive to just to get there and to come back home!! I was so nervous. On the way there, I told my roommate that I really don't know what to pray, yes or no? I really don't know. But on the way back home, I was telling my roommate, "gosh! I cannot be pregnant! I don't wanna be!" My roommate kept telling me to calm down. OK OK! I have to calm down before the result or else I will be fainted!!

My roommate started to lecture me on the car, telling me to do protection if we are not ready to have baby! I used to be on birth control (BC) pills, but I didn't like it that much. Although my period was always on time, I gave up taking the BC.

I rushed to the bathroom to do the pregnancy test. My roommate told me to buy two, so that if it was positive, I can do it again. Two times?! No no no! One time is enough, it should be negative. I prayed so hard!! Sorry baby, I cannot have you yet!!!

The instruction was pretty easy: Just put the pregnancy test into the urine stream and set it aside for 2 minutes. One line is negative, two lines is positive. Ok Ok! Let's pray...

Result:

What does it mean? OK. One dominant blue line should mean "NEGATIVE", negative meant I am not pregnant!!

But wait, why there is another blue line is like appearing?! gosh!!! Two minutes... Ok Ok.. Not two minutes yet... I wiped the test and left it in the bathroom.

I rushed to my roommate room and called her name. She already turned of the light and ready to sleep.

"What happened?" she asked. "I think I don't know." I started mumbled. "What? How did you do it wrong? It's very easy, just pee on the stick!" "I know! I know! I did! But something went wrong!" "You are supposed to just pee on the stick! What did you do? What have you done?" "Arggg... I don't know. Wait, let me show you..." I rushed back to my bathroom. 2 minutes? Ok... It's time!! And I took the pregnancy test to my roommate's bedroom.

She still haven't turn on her light! I couldn't find the switch! She said it was okay, then she used the light from her cell phone to look at the result? With that little light? "No no! Turn on the light!!" I said. "It's ok, you can see the result like that." "But there is a little blue line that you might not be able to see!" "Well, just look at the dominant line, you don't have to look at the line that you could barely see." She convinced me.

Really? Ok Ok. So that meant I was not pregnant?! Phew~~~~~ I was relieved!

"Honey? So?" My husband called me after seeing me ran in and out from our bedroom. He has been on his computer the entire night! I showed him the stick, and he looked at me, "what does it mean?" "It means it's NEGATIVE." I smiled. He asked again, "Are you sure?" I said "YES!!" Then he was quiet. I don't know how to describe the feeling seeing him being quiet. Does he want a baby now? Or maybe he felt relieved too?

The fact is I am not pregnant now. So I don't have to worry anymore. Time will pass, hopefully next time, I will have the opposite feeling when I do this test again!





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