The Road to Financial Armageddon #8: Meltdown
I think it was the meltdown that woke me up from the way how I spent my money in my past. Although I said it many times that I didn't have choice, I could make a better choice before it happened. It's too late to talk about it now, but I am glad that I noticed my mistakes before it was too late.
Like the author, I had the moment when I felt like all decisions I made was wrong. And I couldn't help but think about a way for recovering. My past relationship was one of the reason putting me into some debts, my school cost more than what my family could afford, I was at that point which I could barely breath but pain to give up the most valuable things in my life: my ex-boyfriend and my education.
I wasn't given any choice but continue paying my tuition fees by my credit cards. And it was such period of time when I almost believe that there was no way that I could finish my studies without steady financial support. With that state of mind, I definitely lost my focus in school and slowly giving up myself. Was there a choice? I still do not believe that there was any choice even anybody asks me the same question today. No. I had no choice.
And my past relationship was so horrible, not that he treats me bad, but he was the same like the author who did not have a clue on financial plan. There were so many things I had done for him to help him up during his financial meltdown, but it was a suicide road that lead me to get involved as well. It was like a tumor, I felt like I had to end it so badly so that I could get away.
I cried so many times when those things happened. Nobody was there to help me when I was in the dilemma of my life choices. And I was very angry at that time when my closest family in the states couldn't even lend me a hand when I needed it the most. And when I had made my decisions, I also decided to cut my relationship with those that said they cared and loved me but never helped me. I learned from my meltdown that do not ever trust anybody so EASILY including your own family. I learned it from a very hard way. And I will always remember it.
And now those people cannot bring any influence to my decisions anymore because I would never believe them again in my life. And I just hope that I could share my experiences with my loved one so that they won't fall into the same trap again.
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偶尔也很虚伪
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