Moving Forward to 2010

Moving forward to 2010, I must say, it was not as easy as I thought it would be. But I am glad that 2009 is a past now, and I should move forward to live in present, 2010!

In order to do my resolution, I think I have to reorganize my thoughts about what happened in the past so that the future would be better than the past.

1. Family
The last time I met my family was in 2005. It has been five years I haven't see my family. I miss them a lot. For past couple years, my dad had put a lot of money for my education. I hope this year I could repay him my appreciation for what he had done for me! And hopefully this year, I could fly home to see them.

2. Relationship
I got married in February 28, 2009. It has been almost a year now. We argued, and then we made up. When things were down, I always would think about the possibility of being with someone else. Someone in my past. I think it's better to balance out the positive and negative things in our relationship so that I know what is the best for me. I love him, but sometimes I got hurt from what he said or did to me. And it made me wonder if this relationship is right for me. A lot of people had asked me, what would I do if he is not the right guy for me? Honestly, we got married because I knew that he was the one for me. But if things changed, I would end this relationship regardless. I love him, and I hope the BEST for both of us. I am expecting our relationship would last forever until our children grow old.

3. Children
I used to think that children come right after a marriage, but when it does not happen in our relationship, I am a little disappointed. I am disappointed that we could not afford to have kids right now, that we have to work hard to save more money for our future and our children. I recently keep dreaming about a baby girl. I think she is on my way to our world. I think my first child will be a girl. Oh gosh, how long do I have to wait?

4. Education
I finally able to put a pause on my education, and I am very happy about it! Not that I am lazy to continue my studies, just right now I have too much on my plates and I need to focus more on some other stuffs. I would like to go back to school one day, but just not right now.

5. Work
Working full time as a waitress is definitely NOT what I wished to be after being in school for so many years after high school. But it pays my bills, so I have nothing to complaint. I just need to find a better job to have better income right now. Something in hospital or clinics. Linh is going to open her nail salon with her sister. They asked Cu today if I wanna learn to do nail. I gladly said "yes". I always like something like that. I am artistic, I think I could make my customers happy about the nails that I would do for them. They are going to open their nail salon in March, and I can't wait until I learn to do nails and start having my own customers!

6. Health
I have been losing a lot of weight in recent years. It scares me. I know I have been in so much stress about my life. I do not lose appetite, I still eat a lot, just been losing a lot of weight. Even Cu starts to complaint now. He wants me to make sure that I eat. There is nothing to worry about that, I do eat. Just not gaining any weight so far. I want to be healthier this year. I told Somnang that we need to go back to gym again. After all the hassle for Christmas and New Year, it is time to set up our schedule for work and gym and some fun!

7. Friendship
Realizing I had forgotten to write about my friendship. I guess it is not as important as other things in my life at this point. They don't change my life, not worse or better at this point at least. I am just becoming very picky on choosing friends. Best friend is hard to find. Friends are difficult to be trusted. I think all I can do is to believe in myself. Maybe not to be too dependent on friends. Chinese has a saying said, "Mountain collapses when you rely on it, people run away when you depend on them, depend on yourself is the BEST". I can't agree more. Friends are important, but right now, not the focus in my life.





2010
新年要快乐！