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Maybe it was an accident, but if it was, I expect an apology.

I dropped a comment at my sister-in-law's facebook this morning around 10 o'clock, and when I came back from work around 3pm, I found out that my comment was deleted. What could be the reason that my comment was deleted? Did I say anything that offended her? I don't think so. I just joked with her that if I am going home next CNY, she should come over our house since she is going back to her house this year because she said she is not "Chinese-ly" married to my brother yet. And if not, I will go to "her side" to get "ang-pow" for CNY since she might be "probably" "chinese-ly" married already when I go home next time. Is there anything that I say wrong? If not, why the comment was deleted? If it was deleted accidentally, why didn't she say anything?

I feel so weird.

The fact is, my mom has complaint that my older brother is taking care of his in-law family more than us. She gave me some examples that she thought there were some "bias" but I convinced her not to think too much. But the truth is, my brother doesn't really talk to us much about his relationship with our future in-law and it starts to worry me if my mom is right.

I love my brother, he is the oldest among us, and I think he has sacrificed himself for all of us. And I definitely don't want him to think that we are his burden. That's why I seldom question him what he does or why he does this or that. I always believe that he is a mature, responsible young adult, and he knows what he is doing and that he loves us regardless.

I am 27 years old going to 28. I always feel that I have responsibility to share his burden of our family. And I always want to be graduated as soon as possible so that I could help my family more and that he could rest a little bit. I had some difficult time when I quit my school, thinking it could make his burden even heavier. But I really don't know what to do to help to ease his mind other than working. I am afraid that this could lead him to think that we all are too dependent on him and that he couldn't even breath when he is around us. And I definitely don't want him to keep a distance from us just because there are too much for him to do by just being a family member.

I am really sorry, brother. I am trying my best to put myself together. Getting back to school, graduating and helping the family. I am sorry if this have been too much for you. I just want to let you know that, we never take you for granted.





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