I know I know, I'm two weeks late for my weekly reflection!! I have to admit, my phobia has been haunting me and causing my reflection to be so late this time.
Why? If any of you remember, I have a very serious phobia of doing paperwork. Many people must not understand how it feels if you never have those problem. It's like one of the psychology problem. Sometimes I wonder, do I have the tendency to become crazy one day because of my phobia?
It started from my Reflection Week 10 when I said I needed to focus on my plan to go home. All the sudden, I started avoiding to face my fear of getting it done. I can't call the agency/consulate/embassy anyhow you want to call it. Many people would wonder what so difficult, but I feel like I have this barrier to stop me from doing anything RELATED with IT. I would get so irritated, annoyed, and frustrated at the same time. Then I stress, and having headache RIGHT AWAY. That is what I called "PHOBIA". I didn't know the word before until I did a research about it and my symptoms matched. No, I did not just pick up any name from out of no where! It's disturbing and discouraging!
Oh well, back to my weekly reflection again...
1. Marriage: One of my friend does not agree that marriage is between two people, but involved two families. What can I say? Maybe she thinks that it involves two families because they AFFECT the decision-makings. But still, the decision-makings are in both our hands. Cu's sisters' spa is opening today, we went to their spa on Sunday, everybody in his family were there. Cu was not even ready to go without being forced by me. Sometimes I think they do not QUITE like me because of what we do, we do not try hard enough for them. Cu is a very lay back guy, he does not think that I should do anything to please them. But sometimes, I feel like I need to make him to do certain thing so that they won't dislike me. That's why, I think marriage is really depending on the couples, how they tolerate each other, and how they handle the family.
2. Health: Pollens are reducing, my eyes are getting better. That reminds me again about my annual check and gynecology visit.
3. House: We were running out of dish detergent for past couple days. You know what it means, we didn't do the dishes! Finally bought it yesterday and did all the cleaning before heading work. But we left those dirty dishes in the sink again after dinner last night. What can I say? We are getting lazy on house cleaning!
4. Financial: I deposited the money that I owed Joel yesterday. He was surprised and said that it was a huge amount of money and insisted that I did not have to return it at one time. I was glad that we finally did it. Joel has been a very good friend to me, he has been very helpful throughout my life. Next, we have to focus on more financial budgets and debts.
5. Education: It looks like we are staying in Georgia. I get my mind set to focus on my education AGAIN. Hope my dear husband doesn't change his mind again! =P
6. Work/Career: Linh and Hang's spa has been postponed due to the inspection issues. They said it will be opened today. I visited their spa on Sunday, it was a very nice investment that costs more than USD100K! Hang finally talked to me face-to-face about teaching me to do medicure and pedicure, I agreed and I will get my training started tomorrow morning.
7. Home (Malaysia): Home sweet home. What can I say more than that? I miss home a lot.
8. Passport: I finally had the courage to call the consulate general of Malaysia in Los Angeles today, who knew the lady would tell me that because I live in Georgia, I was supposed to contact the consulate general of Malaysia in D.C. Washington, not Los Angeles. And they only opened from 9:30am to 12:30pm. I was beaten and stressed again!
9. My Brother's Wedding: I just have this bad feeling. And feel like I do not want to go home anymore until my PR paperwork are all ready. I feel so down!
10. Future: I have been thinking of having the baby of our own lately. I have seen so many babies and feel like maybe we are ready this time? But Cu has been insisting on me going back to finish my school. Grrrrr... What a dilemma again~
5 comments:
hey.. did u do any research, tats any way to cure ur phobia?
Haha..I think my house will never run out of dish detergent because we always standby 2bottles.
Yan, yes, by psychological therapy.
Kar Hui, we also buy two, but always forgot when it was the last one. Hehe
oh.. then yen..u really need to look into the method of curing ur phobia.. i think we can't run away of doing documentation in this society.
I know la... Just have to face the fear, I guess. >_<
Actually, Cu takes care of most our paperwork, the only paperwork I need to take care is my permanent resident. He doesn't know much about it and let me do it myself.
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