I almost forgot about my weekly reflection again. I have been feeling sick lately because of the pollen. And today, I feel like I am getting fever. I hate the feeling of being sick. Can't breath well, can't do anything better.
1. Marriage: They say wedding is between two families and marriage is between two persons. I finally agree with this statement. Wedding involves a lot of people, but marriage is up to me and Cu to maintain. Cu's emotion affects my feeling every single day. It's so hard not to smile when he is happy and it's so hard to be happy when he is down. And I think that is because we are in love. Isn't love amazing?
2. Health: Health check-up and women check-up. Feeling sick and emotional this few days. The pollen is making me very sick!! Hate it!
3. House: I have been very lazy to cook and doing dishes. I guess it relates to the tiredness that I have been feeling lately. I haven't fold my clothes, and send my blanket for dry clean. I haven't clean my lounge chairs in balcony that are covered by those pollen! I am tired.
4. Financial: Cu has been putting his business thoughts in action. He did it without telling me ahead of time because he said I would yell at him. I was angry first, but now just pray hard for him to make even more money this month!
5. Education: We are still not sure about moving, so I am setting my education aside while making money from work.
6. Work/Career: Linh and Hang's salon is opening on 15th of April. Cu said that Lind told him to let me know that I could go to their salon to "learn" whenever I could. He said I can call her to tell her my schedule. I feel weird. Are they hiring me or what? This is so vague. Tell somebody else to do that. I have no intention to please them. Thanks anyway.
7. Home (Malaysia): It has been almost 5 years I haven't been home. I miss home a lot. But the thought of going home always followed by a lot of documents to prepare. I am sick of it.
8. Passport: I still have no intention to call the number yet. I need somebody to help me to get the number to ask the details for me. Gosh, where did I get this phobia and how could I overcome it? Please help me, GOD!
9. My Brother's Wedding: OK. HOME, PASSPORT, WEDDING are all related! I'm so afraid to talk with my brother right now. Afraid to face the truth and being forced to do what I do not want to do at this moment. Just kill me now!
10. Future: Cu is still talking about the plan of moving to California. I am having a real headache. What to do next? So confusing!
5 comments:
hai.. i still cannot said marriage is two person...
i have argument with richard mostly becoz family. family effect my mood, and i effect him...
this is y i said after married, we got more argument than b4..
I think marriage is up to two person to MAINTAIN. It will be affected by a lot of things, but in the end, it's how you handle or solve it. =) Different from wedding, many people would want to give you their input, about how it has to be, but nobody can tell you, how you should handle your own husband.
也是对我来说真的不同吧。
婚姻不是两个人的事。。因为这时的我和他多了不同的身份。 人家的媳妇，人家的女婿，这是你不想背也的背的责任。这时候，想的东西，顾的东西和人更多了。
结婚也许还可以是两个人的事（虽然有时候不尽然。。），选你要的东西，你要的方式，只是有时候真的需要一些勇气。 :>
东西没有绝对的，因人而异吧。。
你说的也有道理。偶尔我也会因为他家人的态度而不高兴。但，我会告诉自己，不高兴就要让他知道，然后让他处理。到后来，对我而言，至于他家人的是非，是靠他处理的态度让我满不满意而已。吵不吵架，也是看我们俩的互相罗。
是啊。。对他家人的感觉，我也是一直都老老实实的和他说的。他也明白。。我需要适应期。:>
现在会多一点吵架，通常是他不赞成我处理我家人事情的态度和方式。我也会不耐烦他事事都要管，好像都不放心我处理事情。我也需要有自己的空间。会吵架，也是因为大家摊出来讲啊。。
那时候就会想，拍拖的时候，很少需要面对那样的情形也。。。:P
有一部分也是因为家人就在身边，他们的事就是大家的事，我们生活的一部分。。让我会有婚姻不是两个人的事的想法。
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