Meditation

It has come to the time when I thought that could be perfect is totally going wrong!　

Wednesday evening, I finished my last final exam, flying home with the thought that my school life is over and now is the time for me to work and earn money!!

Thursday afternoon, my manager was mad at me because I wasn't aware that my table got sat and my guests were not happy. He almost cut my schedule while I was planning to close lunch shift. Ｉ begged him not to send me home, apologized for my mistakes. Although he let me past this time, I still feel like such a loser. How could I neglected my table until I didn't even know when did I get sat? That was such a stupid move!!　

I finally made my goal today and came home after Somnang and I closed the lunch shift. Sitting on the couch, Ｉ can't stop myself to think about what happened at work. I made quite some mistakes at work today. I was so distracted and and my brain was congested. Maybe I need to buy myself a good pen, so that I read my own writing better.

I am Taurus, and I expect everything to be perfect. Compare to last time when I worked at another place, when I　ｔｈｏｕｇｈｔ　Ｉ so good at everything, I feel like a total dummie at this new job. One month has already passed. Is this going to get any better? I really hope so. I can't explain how much disappointment I feel toward myself. Especially at this moment when I need to earn a lot of money, I can't let other to have the chance to send me home. Oh gosh!!! Headache again!!!






人非圣贤，孰能无过？
我了解的。但还是很希望自己的工作可以完美一点。
这样就不会让别人有捉住痛脚的机会了。
唉～