Weekly Reflection 31

I always said that I am a happier person now, no worries about what my life would lead me to cause I have everything I wanted. But my mind has changed frequently due to what I am facing now. Am I happy? Yes, I am still happy, but I just have a lot of thought and decision to make. It irritates me when I cannot make my minds. I can't be happy when things are still hanging in the air. I have been very frustrating.

1.Marriage: Cu has been talking about baby a lot, and two nights ago, he asked, "I wonder when will you be pregnant?" I smiled and said, "How can I get pregnant if we don't 'work' on it?" Hahaha... Baby plan? Still working on it.

2. Health: I have been going to bed earlier than usual. And now I start getting used to it. I get very sleepy when it hits 1am. It's a good thing that it becomes my habit now. I actually checked the info about the women check-up, saying that women can do the check-up every two years after the yearly check-up if nothing bad happens. So we are fine.

3. House: We still stick to our plan to buy house in February. This won't change unless we decide to go back home.

4. Financial: We spent so much money over the weekend during Hang's wedding. Cu's friends and cousins came over, Cu felt like a host to take them places and paid for them. Ughhhh... Money is bleeding all over the places! Ok Ok... Last wedding in his family.

5. Education: I have been very motivated about going back to school. But now I really want to go back to school to continue my art major. Way to convince Cu that it will turn out better for me? I really love art and designs!

6. Work/Career: I have been struggling between working at two places. The business has going slower since school starts. I guess parents have to save their money for school supplies for kids. As for me, I try to work at places that can make me more money. Gosh... It's hard when you have two jobs, because you don't know which place can make more money.

7. Home (Malaysia): Mom finally agreed that going home for 10 days holidays is a waste. She said flying back and forth already take 3 days. That means we only have 7 days in Malaysia. What about Cu? How does he cope with jet lag? From my observation, he might not be the person who can jump in and jump out easily. He might have few days of jet lag too! In that saying... 7 days will become even shorter for us...

8. Passport: Should I go to New York to renew my passport? If I do, then I guess it's better coz I dun have to worry about it being expired next year. New York New York! I miss New York sooooo much! Can we don't go back to Malaysia and change our trip to New York instead? Hehee....

9. My Brother's Wedding: Obviously I can't stop thinking about going back home. Not just because of my brother's wedding, but I also really miss home now! But gosh, 10 days is not enough!!!

10. Future: I really confused now.